Today was a day full of exceptions. I woke up at 10am. I haven’t done that since senior prom. I then finished one paper well before tomorrow’s deadline. I then proceeded to go tree shopping, get groceries, finish a project for Peter’s class 12 hours before its due, and bake a batch of cookies and rolls. I feel quite accomplished for doing all of this AND sleeping in until 10.
However the most shocking exception came late this afternoon while washing grapes. In the midst of baking and homework I had a moment of silence. Those of you who know me know that silence is rare…either I am talking, blasting music or listening to internal voices organize my to do lists. This particular silence was accompanied with reflection. I had a bizarre feeling of emptiness. In the past 18 months since Jay left I have hardly had time to sleep let alone reflect. As I stood at my kitchen sink I realized how much time had passed, and how lonely I really am without Jay. Thankfully we are close to being reunited unless the Embassy has other plans…so please keep us in your thoughts and pray for a speedy return. No exceptions.
March 1 is St. Davids Day in Wales. For those of you who follow Jay’s blog, he wrote about our first St. Davids Day three years ago. He asked me to write about our St. Davids Day three years from now. Hmm…I honestly wish I could say I knew what three years from now will look like. However…who knows with Jay and I…I see us, together…making welsh cakes and glamorgan sausages for our friends and family. We will have a cozy little house and possibly a furry cuddly dog. Perhaps we can con our welsh friends to even send us some Brains and Cadbury…Heres hoping anyways…Ahh to have a simple life with the one I love…that will be nice…
This weekend was Jay’s bachelor party. I had the chance to email him back and forth as he got progressively more drunk yesterday. I am so thankful for all of our wonderful friends. Jay and I are both so blessed to have great people in our lives. Today I got the pleasure of talking to two of our best friends. It has been over a year since the four of us have been together. Vinny is in London, Jay in Wrexham, Pat in Iraq and me in South Dakota. I miss all three of these guys so much. They are hilarious, even if their jokes are predictable. I am so glad Jay has such great man friends. It speaks volumes of just how awesome my fiancé is. :) I cannot wait until June when we will all be reunited at our wedding.
Today I was hoping yet again the USCIS would make up its freaking mind. No such luck. However, I did see something that made me quite happy. I have been working out trying to get myself into wedding dress shape. There is an older couple in their mid to late 60’s who often work out the same times I do. They are so adorable. They each work out separately and then do certain exercises together. And let me just note this sidebar…this old guy can lift more weight than most guys half his age. It’s quite impressive. Either way, they are adorable. And I only hope that Jay and I are that happy many years from now. End cheesy scene.
I have always been a firm believer that Valentines is a commercialized dumpster of a holiday. If you love someone they should know how special they are to you every day. This year is no exception. I do however get Jay a card and write a nice little note in it. And I don’t want to expect any gifts in return…I know he’s planned an amazing honeymoon…Is it August yet?? Either which way I digress. I know most people think I’m off my rocker for not going crazy without Jay around. The truth? I miss him every day. That being said, grad school, working 40+ hours per week, working out, family and wedding/life planning take up a majority of my days. This weekend though I got a few spare minutes on my drive to the farm to spend time with my family. As I sped down the highway listening to Mumford I was reminded of cooking in Cardiff with Jay and jamming out in his kitchen. Those 10 minutes were very sad and I just realise how much we have missed by being apart these past 16 months. But plus side?? We are on the last month or so of being apart if USCIS cooperates. So fingers crossed. So tomorrow will be just like any other day…except I might eat more chocolate.
It it not very often that I know a compliment when I see one…or perhaps they are just that few and far between…either way I got two of the best compliments to date from two very dear friends today.
1. While texting with Ali C. she informed me that she needs me…in man form. Love it. I am not sure the world could handle a man version of me…or am I already a man version of me…? who knows??
2. While sweating my ass off in our work out class Janelle asked me…’Were you a distance runner in high school?’ HA! i nearly fell over. All I gotta say to that is watch your ass Mateya Berg…Janelle and I are gonna be running along side you after baby b is born! :)
Every day Jay makes me proud. This Saturday he going to make not only me, but his whole family proud. Nearly one year ago, Jays dad, John Lennon was taken from us all far too soon. He was a wonderful, gentle and hilarious man. I may have only known him briefly, but I am so thankful for him making Jay who he is today. I see so much of John’s personality in Jay and I can only hope he will be half as wonderful as his father.
On Saturday, Jay will be running his first race in memory of his dad. He is running a 5k in Edinburgh, Scotland. It is going to be freezing and hilly. I don’t envy him one bit. Please consider supporting Jay in his run and in turn, the Walton Neuroscience Fund. They are the hospital that saved John and gave him 14 more wonderful years among us. Click the link below to donate. GO JAY GO! :)
Today as I sat in class…avoiding at all costs our over-energetic APA citation speaker I was skyping with Jay. I suddenly realised that I have yet to find a florist and lock down a caterer. Crap. Just when I think I’m getting ahead of this wedding stuff something comes and kicks me in the shins. Then I found out how much bouquets and boutonnieres cost. I am going to become a self taught florist over the holidays. Jay and I proceeded to talk about what treats we want from Sinful Things for the wedding. Then I got hungry. Then I went to Pinterest to escape my anxiety. So needless to say I haven’t locked anything in yet. After I gave my final presentation of the semester (YAY) I came home and had soup and a miller light. Now just one more final exam and then I promise I will really start getting this wedding stuff figured out…until I get distracted by Pinterest or sweets…